ŚB 3.4.5
Canto 3, Chapter 4, Text 5
तथापि तदभिप्रेतं जानन्नहमरिन्दम ।
पृष्ठतोऽन्वगमं भर्तु: पादविश्लेषणाक्षम: ॥ ५ ॥
पृष्ठतोऽन्वगमं भर्तु: पादविश्लेषणाक्षम: ॥ ५ ॥
tathāpi tad-abhipretaṁ
jānann aham arindama
pṛṣṭhato ’nvagamaṁ bhartuḥ
pāda-viśleṣaṇākṣamaḥ
jānann aham arindama
pṛṣṭhato ’nvagamaṁ bhartuḥ
pāda-viśleṣaṇākṣamaḥ
Word by word
tathā api — yet, in spite of; tat-abhipretam — His desire; jānan — knowing; aham — I; arim-dama — O subduer of the enemy (Vidura); pṛṣṭhataḥ — behind; anvagamam — followed; bhartuḥ — of the master; pāda-viśleṣaṇa — separation from His lotus feet; akṣamaḥ — not being able.
Translation
Yet in spite of my knowing His desire [to destroy the dynasty], O Arindama [Vidura], I followed Him because it was impossible for me to bear separation from the lotus feet of the master.